Catching up

Sooooooo!! The last time I wrote was in October!! It has been a busy couple of months. We had an amazing halloween. John was a Jedi and Eli was his Yoda! I make Johns costume every year. And for the past three years he has won best costume at his work! Whoot! Whoot! It is a competition in my head! I make it my mission to make John look good! Then we went trick or treating at the zoo. It was awesome! Eli was Nemo and was adoreable. I think I will hopefully go again next year!
Then came Thanksgiving, Eli and I went to Tulsa to see Thomas' family. We had a pretty good time. I liked the idea of Eli meeting all his cousins. And he has ALOT! There were at least twenty kids there! He didnt even get to meet them all. Plus, the food was amazing! Fry bread and corn soup for Thanksgiving, you cant go wrong there! Its Thanksgiving NDN style! I loved it, and enjoyed my time with everyone.
Now, we are almost past Christimas, and I'm realizing time flies! Eli can now walk, has his first tooth, and is completely amazing! Things have been a little difficult up until now. I have been taking care of John and Eli while my mom and sister were away, going to school, and everything else! I finally gave Thomas the boot and have not regretted that decesion one bit! It's the best thing I could have done for myself! I'm a much happier person and I will be a much happier mommy! Now, he and I are trying to figure out where to go from here. Last weekend was the first time we had to do drop off! It competed for the second hardest day of my life. After I dropped off Eli, I drove to the mall and sat in the parking lot and cried! I didnt know how hard it would be to drop off my little guy. But, with time I know things will get easier.
Tomorrow is Elis first Christmas, and I have all his toys and stocking ready for the big day! Its going to be strange without my mom here, but, next year will be awesome!
This Christmas I'm so greatful to have John, and Jenny supporting Eli and I! I'm increibly greatful for Eli and all the happiness he has brought to me the last nine months! God knew I needed him in my life! I'm looking forward to the all the wonderful experiences and people the new year is going to bring! Merry Christmas!

It has been a while since my last post! Not much has ben going on but, Eli is growing up too fast! He is walking and talking and Im loving every minute of it! However, with his new found abilities comes major stess! Eli is putting every damn thing in his mouth!! I didnt know my gray hair could come in so fast! Even this morning we had a choking incident! I know its up to me to make sure there is nothing available for him to put in his mouth, but it is so hard! I had no idea that this was the stressful part. And I thought the first couple of months were stressful! WRONG!! Now that he can crawl and walk he is getting into everything!! I dont think im going to make!! LOL!

Halloween

I'm so excited! We are going to the zoo today to trick or treat!! Eli is going to be a baby Nemo and Yoda! My brother was a Jedi for his halloween party! He looked amazing!! And Eli was his sidekick, Yoda!

Will I ever feel normal again?

Am I ever going to be normal again? I absolutely loooooove my boy! But, I tried to go to the store and get things for Johns Halloween costume!! UMMM impossible! Its raining, Eli is throwing a fit! I feel like I cant do anything!! GEEZE!! He seriously threw a fit at the counter and threw his bottle and laughed! I was pissed!!! We had to come home! Now he is the amazing little boy I know and will always love! But, it sucks that I cant do the things I need to do when were out and about. So I wonder when I will ever feel back to normal. Or is this my new normal?

Morning mommy time and Elis third word!

Every morning around 4am, Eli wakes up so happy! We lay together and he crawls around and all over me on the bed. This is the time that he is most vocal! He talks to me for about an hour every morning. Its my most favorite time! This morning he was laying on my tummy saying awoof! It took me a moment to realize, but he was saying WOOF!! He has this toy that says woof woof!! I cant believe it, this is his third word!! I love our morning time together so much!

Baby recall

So I like to try new things, when it coms to Eli. Last week I made my weekly trip to Babies R Us. I saw new pouches of baby food called Plum Organic. I bought about ten pouches!! I took some on my trip and started feeding Eli the new food! The next day began his diahrrea, and has yet to stop!! I can't even remeber what a regular dirty diaper looks like!!
Yesterday, I recieved a phone call alerting me to a recall on the very food I have been feeding Eli!! I freak out and call Babies R Us, they denied that they sell that food!! WTF!! I was pissed!! I just wanted them to know so they could pull it from there shelves!! Also! they threw a fit when I asked them if I could retrun my remaining product! I was so mad!

John and Eli at the airport! Both were so tired, and our day had not even started!! John is such an awsome uncle!!

My weekend with my mom

So John and I are finally back from California. Our four day stay was too brief and very stressful! First, let me say my mom looked so good! I was expecting her to look alot worse. Thankfully, it was not too bad. She has lost the majority of her hair, and only a little bit of weight. Now, her arm, thats another story! The first time the nurse administerd her chemo, it was done improperly. She now has what is known as a "chemo burn" and it is a huge hole made by the chemo. She under went surgery yesterday to reapair this problem and try and close out the hole. Hopefully, she will only need this one surgery, and she can get back to her treatment by the end of this month.
I think the stress from my mom is causing my family to really stress, and go "FRODO"(crazy) on eachothers ass!! My aunt and sister totally got into it while I was there!! Fighting began, words were exchanged, and Jenny and my aunt threw down!! I don't know what really happend! Jenny says it one way, and my aunt says another. I choose to stand by Jenny, and my mother chose to stand by my aunt! Whatever happend caused for an extremely uncomfortable visit. All this caused my aunt and grandma to pack up and leave. They took a much neede trip five hours north of LA, to see my Uncle David. I was furious that they left!! John, baby and I travel all this way to see my mom; but, also we want to see them!! Oh, well!! Them leaving actually gave us some good family time as well. My last day there and all us kids just chilled with my mom! My aunt and and grams thought they were hurting us by leaving; but, really we enjoyed our time together. But, I am extremely hurt! I hope they can both set aside there differences and make it work for my mom!
Now, I must tell you about my flight going and coming!! I had John and baby!! John is a stubborn man!! When he gets tired or fed up, he WILL let you know. So we take off to Phoenix and its a two hour flight. For the first hour and a half, I had a screaming baby in my hands, a very upset John to the right of me, and an extremely unhappy fat man to my left! Eli was AWFUL!! I could not get him to stop crying! It was so bad! Lucky for him the windows were double paned! I wanted to throw him out! I joke!! But, all two hundred other passengers were not!! While all this was taking place, I had John, telling me and the baby to hush,be quiet boy, and shut up! I cant get too mad, he was only saying what we were all thinking!! Then Eli proceeds to take Johns cup, full of water and splash me, John, and fat man! Whoopsie!! Sorry, is all I could say!! It was kind of funny, but not at that moment! Thankfully, the ride home was much smoother. I dread December for when we go back! I think I just may drive! My mom wants her van, and then we could fly back! Just one plane trip and not two!! Sounds like a plan!!

Going to see Ging-Ging

Tomorrow Eli, John and I are heading to California to see my mom(Ging-Ging)!! My mom is in Cali getting treatment for stage four lymphoma. She was diagnossed in July after what we thought was going to be a routine hernia repair. Obviously we got the shock of a lifetime!! So we all headed to California in search of a cure!! She is at Norris Cancer Center, and so far things have been ok. John and I are in Shawnee holding down the fort until her return!! She can't really be around babies due to germs and her weakend immune system, and she didn't really want John to see her sick. I'm worried about how John is going to react to her new Look! We are incredibly excited and I'm extremely nervous to see her! I know she is excited to see Eli!! Thankfully he is a good little traveler!!

Now, I must pack! I'm the biggest procrastonater there is! I have three different people to pack for, all with three extremly differnt needs! And, I dont know how to pack! I'm the type of woman who needs options!! I told myself I would start as soon as baby went down for the night. Well, that was two hours ago!! Now I just told myself I will start at three in the morning! Luckily, our flight does not leave until tomrrow night!

Anyways... Wish us luck!!

Are you kidding me?

I was sitting in a parking lot yesterday and guess what I saw? Two adults sitting in the front seat with the windows rolled up smoking on their cigs!! I thought, how can people do that? But, then I saw, three little kids sitting in the back seat!! Ranging from ages infant to three years old! Are you fucking kidding me!! Have you no respect or consideration for you childrens health or quality of life? Nothing makes me more insane than smoking! But, then to impose it on your kids! I dont understand! I did everything to keep my baby healthy! No caffine, no second hand smoke, eat right!! These "parents" do that to there kid! It's just ridiculous!! I was and am so angry!

Seven Months

Today I went and had Eli's seven month picture taken. I do this every month! I'm hoping to have the best documented baby book EVER! Then I was thinking, I hope I do this for my next child. The lady at the picture place said "you probalbly won't! You wont have the time or money!" Geeze, she made me a little sad. My mom made a baby book for Jenny my sister, and then for my brother and I did'nt have one. I guess she is right, but, I hope not.

Time is flying

Time is flying by!! Eli is seven months old! I had no idea how fast little man was going to grow. I'm sad that he is no longer a new born. I did'nt realize that time would pass me by. Those first couple of weeks was hell!! All the feedings, and changes! I felt so lonely! I realize I had my family by my side, but at the time it was so lonely!! I would do anything to get those first few moments back! Eli is totally the man of my life! I had no idea I could love anything so much! I thank my creator everyday for blessing me with such an amazing gift! I'm so blessed!

Sunday Blahs!

Today is my first real posting!! It is Sunday and rainy! Normally days like these are my absolute favorite; but, today I've got the blahs!! I am missing my mom so much theses days! For those of you reading this, my mother is in California seeking treatment for cancer. So, I am in Oklahoma taking care of my brother who has downsyndrome and my amazing baby!! Oh!! and my moms four dogs!! It's awful!! All my life I thought I wanted to open up a dog farm! Well F that!! What was I thinking! I'am going crazy with just the four dogs, there is no way I could handle more!