Will I ever feel normal again?

Am I ever going to be normal again? I absolutely loooooove my boy! But, I tried to go to the store and get things for Johns Halloween costume!! UMMM impossible! Its raining, Eli is throwing a fit! I feel like I cant do anything!! GEEZE!! He seriously threw a fit at the counter and threw his bottle and laughed! I was pissed!!! We had to come home! Now he is the amazing little boy I know and will always love! But, it sucks that I cant do the things I need to do when were out and about. So I wonder when I will ever feel back to normal. Or is this my new normal?